Those who know me, would rightly agree ” I love my family.”
But what maybe they don’t know, is I am not very good at showing my love to them.
Sure, I hug them and tell them ” I love you.” I do things for them, I buy them things.
But what I don’t do much of, or very well, is listen to them. Ask if they are “ok”? Or how they are doing or feeling.
It’s not that I don’t care. I just have always been more focused on what I should be doing for the world, for God. Which really has been ” how many books can I get published.” ” How much success can I grow in this business or that.”
Friends think I am “successful” because of what I have accomplished in my life. But, I woke up today asking myself “how successful am I at loving my family the way God loves them?”
The answer was; not as well as I need to. If I can’t or don’t show my family the same love God has for me, for the world and for them, how did I ever think I could help win them to Christ?
I lack patience, compassion and forgiveness towards my family. When my oldest son was a teenager and he would take the Lord’s name in vain…I would slap him across the face.
The Lord spoke to my heart and showed me, He doesn’t need me to fight for Him. He can handle that. I am ONLY called to love my family, even when they swear. My slapping my son’s face, didn’t stop him from taking the Lord’s name in vain.
I woke up from a dream that I shared with one of my prayer partners this morning. She gave me a Spiritual interpretation and from there, the Lord was able to open my eyes to how I have been showing His love and forgiveness to everyone except my family.
This hurt, it was tough to hear, but very true. I mentor women who have unforgiveness, so this was something I have needed to realize and change.
My Hope in sharing this, is to help anyone who like myself, hasn’t been loving their family the way God wants them to.
I am a work in progress and this is going to be my focus for 2020…show my family God’s love.
#peace #forgive #godsgrace #loveyourfamilyfirst