If I was meant to be controlled, I would have come with a remote!

Anyone else relate to this?
I am learning to Stop allowing others to control me.
It took alot of healing from my past.
It also takes daily practice to stick up for myself. To tell my husband * Please don’t tell me what pan to fry the eggs in, please don’t tell me where to put the cheese back in the fridge…I get to make my own choices. I can put the cheese anywhere I want in the fridge.*
I grew up being told how to think, what I should feel, why I should feel it and to do whatever made my mom happy. Her feelings were put above my sister and I’s feelings.
It took into my fifties to realize thats not good to make your child into who YOU WANT THEM TO BE, HOW YOU WANT THEM TO THINK AND ACT.
Sadly, I did the same to my two sons. Trying to get them to be and act a certain way. My oldest fought against it, to the extreme, and I can see his struggles with trying to do this in his own children.
My youngest joined the Army during college and has someone telling him what to do.
In learning that no one gets to control me ever again…its FREEING!
I had to also give up trying to control how my son raises his kids, what choices my sons make, what actions they take….those belong to them. I don’t get a say…unless they ask…but even then…its their life…not mine.
I grew up believing everything I did was a reflection on my parents…thats what they taught us. My husband was taught the same thing and he thought that about our sons. He took it personal when they made a mistake.
My question to you, is have you ever felt controlled? Share if you choose.


Last night I had a dream…
I was was walking outside in a crowded area and a man (who I sensed was evil) bumped into me, causing me to drop my purse and all the contents spilled out.
I quickly grabbed my billfold (my life) and everything else as quickly as I could.
He was kneeling down in front of me, with a sneer on his face. I then noticed I had a weapon…a gun was laying on the ground (it was mine, but it was a pellet pistol) <- remember it’s a dream so nothing is impossible.
Next to the gun was a baggie with the bullets (pellets) inside.
As I grabbed the gun and the baggie clutching my purse to my chest…I ran into a building….
The man dissappeared….but this message stuck with me after I woke up;

So many of us have our weapons but they aren’t loaded and ready to use against evil.

I took this to mean…We have the Bible, we know scriptures…but maybe we aren’t prepared to protect ourselves against evil…
A HUGE part of having our weapon loaded would be the power of our words…the power of prayer. Actually speaking those scriptures outloud against the devil.

If the devil showed his face to you RIGHT NOW IN THIS MOMENT…What would be your first instinct?
Now…take what you just said or thought…and ask yourself…Do I do this when the devil attacks my health, my family, my business, my ministry, my finances?

Now…understand this…the devil is sneaky…he isn’t going to waltz in showing his true self…he knows if he did, you would defeat him. He is going to continue with what works….
Coming at you , attacking your health, your kids ( getting in trouble at school or being disrespectful at home) your husbands job, your marriage, your finances…even through your own friends and family.

Causing division between you all…over sports ( not a big deal) but then over politics and the vaccine…soon families and friends aren’t speaking to one another because of those things!
Tell me I am wrong?
I wish you could….

There are those of us who are standing on the Word using it against the devil and his division in the world today!

Part of having our weapon loaded against the devil…is knowing it’s HIM BEHIND ALL THIS….
Don’t take aim at one another over what Satan is doing!

Stand in agreement with me that eyes will be opened to the devils ploys…to the fear he is instilling in the world.
Fear, worry, strife, family and friends not speaking due to politics and everything going on in the world right now is NOT FROM GOD….
Faith, assurance in Our Heavenly Fathers protection, healing and restoration is!
Can I get an AMEN?

What kind of weird are you?

So this is blogging, People want to know you better, they said. Blog to build your brand, they said. Blog to get people to follow you they said. Just be yourself and write whatever you want, they said. Follow other bloggers they said.

So here I sit, searching thru blog posts and I feel about as out of place as a fish out of water. I dont write about dark depressing things, sad things, bad things, dirty things, or even scarey things. I like everyone around me to be calm, peaceful, happy, laughing, smiling and enjoying life. Is that weird? I didn’t think it was, until the world of blogging.

I do enjoy writing and expressing my thoughts to people. I like to write about positiive things. I want to help people find their inner calm, peace and happiness.

I am in the process of writing 3 books. I have self published one already 3 years ago. I tend to jump in and just swim.. not always stopping for air. So the book I self published, has alot of spelling errors among other errors. But that doesnt bother me to the extent of fixing it before writing the next book. Some day I will, if I have extra money to.

I am sure I will introduce my books in this blog… actually a short 4 chapter book on being postive is due out in an e-book any day. It will be in here to purchase. I do have a new project. I have an email list started of people I will weekly email or text to give them a weekly free positive quote. I will write the amount of people signed up so far (6) , because you should track everything, they said.