If I was meant to be controlled, I would have come with a remote!

Anyone else relate to this?
I am learning to Stop allowing others to control me.
It took alot of healing from my past.
It also takes daily practice to stick up for myself. To tell my husband * Please don’t tell me what pan to fry the eggs in, please don’t tell me where to put the cheese back in the fridge…I get to make my own choices. I can put the cheese anywhere I want in the fridge.*
I grew up being told how to think, what I should feel, why I should feel it and to do whatever made my mom happy. Her feelings were put above my sister and I’s feelings.
It took into my fifties to realize thats not good to make your child into who YOU WANT THEM TO BE, HOW YOU WANT THEM TO THINK AND ACT.
Sadly, I did the same to my two sons. Trying to get them to be and act a certain way. My oldest fought against it, to the extreme, and I can see his struggles with trying to do this in his own children.
My youngest joined the Army during college and has someone telling him what to do.
In learning that no one gets to control me ever again…its FREEING!
I had to also give up trying to control how my son raises his kids, what choices my sons make, what actions they take….those belong to them. I don’t get a say…unless they ask…but even then…its their life…not mine.
I grew up believing everything I did was a reflection on my parents…thats what they taught us. My husband was taught the same thing and he thought that about our sons. He took it personal when they made a mistake.
My question to you, is have you ever felt controlled? Share if you choose.

Don’t Wait or Hesitate

I turned fifty three months ago. It wasn’t a hard age to accept, at least not while getting presents, a party and funny cards. Now living life with that number in my mind… that’s where it gets tricky.

50+ 20 = 70… in twenty years, I will turn seventy. Seems impossible. Hard to wrap my head around. Not that 70 is old… its the new 60. Its just a number right?

When you start looking at your life and your goals you want to accomplish. It seems HUGE if you haven’t accomplished what you want yet. Not saying I haven’t accomplished things, because I have according to friends and family. But that’s not in my mind.

My mind is still running a list over and over… each year that passes… each month, week, day… did you do this, this and this?

I am going to start embracing the fact that 50 is my “don’t wait or hesitate” time. The time is now. There are so many places to go, things to see and do. So many people to meet and impact in a positive way.